Keeping my head above water.

If you know me well, you know  I've battled some pretty intense demons for a very long time. Recently I've faced those demons, but I've had such a hard time keeping them away.

I slipped into quite the depression the past couple of days. I've let myself get so run into the ground that I haven't given myself time to breath.

I've had people accuse me of pretending to be perfect...But clearly the statements above let you know I've never thought of myself as perfect, I just  to focus on the positive instead. Which is  a huge thing for me with all of the negative things I got going on in my head.


These past few days like I said, have been super hard for me. I get off of work, get the kids, do home work, sports, run errands, lately I've been running after school for check ups & dentist appointments.....Do all the home stuff (cook/clean/baths/laundry) and then repeat the next day. For some reason I have been feeling really down about all of it. I felt like no one actually appreciated the things that I do.

But then today, my husband sent me this text.." I just want you to know that you are a very special person destined for big and beautiful things. I am thankful that everyday I can wake up to you and look forward to the next."

That is literally the only thing I needed to hear to make me feel better. Sometimes as busy Mom's we NEED to hear how much we mean. All too often the things us Mother's do go un-noticed. Whether you are a working Mom or stay at home Mom. In my experience of being both, being a working Mom is seemingly much harder. This is only in my experience. Some of you are super stay-at-home Mom's and I will never ever down play what you do.

Keeping my head above water is harder some days. But I am doing it.

Until next time.........

Nik xoxox