Time...Where have you gone?

Not many people blog anymore...At least I don't think.

I live under a rock when it comes to what people do or don't do. So if this isn't a thing anymore at least it's something that I can let my thoughts out. 

I've been so consumed with my life for so long that I don't even take the time sometimes to let my brain talk about what I want to talk about. 

I have some of the very best supporters in my life. Number one is my Husband....He pretty much rocks at keeping me on my toes I wouldn't be able to get through life without him.... Secondly my friend Rob. I've known him since I was really young and we recently (about 4 months ago) started to talk and share stories, thoughts, and he really had been my rock. 

I have to tell you that I'm having a hard time with my eldest son turning 12 next week. Seriously.....Twelve...The preteen age....The age before the dooms day age. I've never felt so old. The fact is, I'm not old....I am going to 28 shortly after my dear son Alexander turns 12. I knew the day would come when I was older that I would feel so uncomfortable with having an older son. That day is now. Even some of his friends saw that he was messaging me on his cellphone (facebook messanger which I am always stalking) and asked if I was his GIRLFRIEND. What?! Apparently they thought I was a high school girl that he was dating. I was kind of flattered and kind of like..Uh..NO.

Then we move onto the fact that Gavin my very last born ever ever will be five nex week and then Dylan will be seven. I keep thinking about when I found out I was pregnant with Gavin and then when he was born having my tubes tied, knowing he would be my last. Then I keep thinking about Dylan being born, holding his little self, then my husband taking care of him all on his own at 9 months old and me helping....

Time is going by way too fast. My brother is 18 ready to turn 19, my sister Alyssa just turned 20, and my littlest sister turned 16. Time...Time.....Where have you gone? 

That's all I've got.

xxxo

Nik